Ramblings...

• There are very few people who really know me...my mother, my husband and myself.
• I am really a quiet person. I really like to be alone. I would prefer to be home alone reading a book or better yet resting. Don't get me wrong...I love to sing and dance in my kitchen with my three men and feel free.
• I cannot stand ignorant people.
• People who speak before they think are very annoying to me.
• Don't mess with my kids, I don't take kindly to anyone messing with my kids.
• Don't mess with my husband, I have his back.
• I try really hard to be tolerant of people who make racial comments about my family, but know once I make you aware that something bothers me, please don't push me, I can't promise I will be as tolerant.
• Blue is my most favorite color.
• I love my mother. I miss her very much.
• I am grateful that I have a brother I would love to get to know better.
• My sister is a nut, but she's my sister and I need to start honoring her more, even if she pisses me off to high heaven most of the time. I love her dearly.
• TSC scares me.
• I complain too much about Aiden's behavior...he is 4 and is doing his job. I guess I forgot what 4 was like.
• I love it when Aiden yells from the bathroom, "Mom, I love you."
• The thought of my husband, just being, makes me swoon.
• I love how David wraps me into him just before he falls asleep, every night without fail, even when I'm a bit peeved.
• When my husband smiles with his whole face, it makes me smile bigger and my heart feeling like it's enlarging within me.
• Alex makes me wonder.
• I am excited to know Alex as a grown man. He impresses me.

Priorities

How I become my own priority #

The first thing I want to do is ask you a few questions. They all pertain to me (Nakia)

1. Where you and I met:

2. Take a stab at my full Name:

3. How long you've known me:

4. The last time that we saw each other:

5. Would I ever go sky diving?

6. Your first impression of me upon meeting/seeing me:

7. Am I funny?

8. My favorite type of music:

9. Can I sing?

10. The best feature about me:

11. What do I want to do more than anything?

12. What is one thing that you think I should do?

13. Do I have any special talents? If so, what are they?

14. Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else?

15. My favorite food:

16. If there was one good nickname for me, it would be:

17. Your favorite memory of me:

I have taken myself off of my own list. WTH!! When did that happen? I have so many new things on my list I just keep moving me down and now I am not even on the list. The current list is:

• David
• Alex
• Aiden
• Church
• Garden
• Relief Society Enrichment
• Visiting Teaching Sister (which I suck royally at)
• Preschooling Aiden
• Laundry (I hate this, I do it out of complete duress)
• Housekeeping
• Parent issues
• In-law issues
• Medical Crisis'
• Sibling issues

I can't do it much longer. And it's no one's fault but mine. How do I change it? Pray, read, study... but the most important thing is to DO! There must be action. Without it, it is just a dream... and I don't believe in the whole "dream come true" theory out there. There is a lot of work on my part. Quick fixes are not the answer to anything. In the end, they never work.

So what am I going to to better me?...I am going to have to get the courage to say it... and then do something about it!!

I Nakia Armstrong am:

• overweight- I weigh over 200 lbs. (this is really hard to actually type, but it is not like I can hide it.)
• under-exercised
• over-eating
• not admitting I know I can do more
• cheating my husband and kids, by knowingly not taking better care of myself, especially since I know how.
• watching way too much TV (ironically, this is all coming about because of TV, !#$% Oprah)

How did I get here!?! But doesn't matter. The questions is how do I get to a better me...I don't want to "get back there." "There" is not where I need to be or want to be. I really like here and now. I need to be a great "Here and now."

Who out there is will to help me get a great "Here and now." I'm not taking any pills, having some stomach stapling/cinching/removing mess done to me. It wasn't easy getting here and it shouldn't be easy getting out of here. I need people, other than the one's I live with, to be accountable to everyday. My hubby and kids will allow me to slide. Because after all I am the "big bad mama." I want people who are not afraid call it like it is.

So if you think you can hound me, push me, encourage me, HELP ME...I need you on my side, making sure I exercise everyday, eating properly everyday. I will not lie.

Here is my goal:

I am not so much interested in a number... I want to run for a long time.

I want to do another musical. Particularly OZ and Little Shop of Horrors with the Empress Theater in Magna. (I think auditions are coming up soon.)

A couple of other things I'll not mention, yet, don't' want to overwhelm myself.

...this is time we need...Girls just wanna have fun!!!

One of the most important things a girl can do for herself is to spend time with other girls. Over last weekend me and 20 or so of my girlfriends got together for an overnighter and my bestfriend Brandi's house. It was blast. No reason for the party, just a party to let our hair down, sing, dance a little and EAT!!!

We had the chance to see people from the old "hood" and catch up "newbies" on whose who. I loved it.

Those of you who didn't make it...we missed you...maybe next time.

Notice I was the smart one....there is no evidence I was a party to the debauchery.

You'll see iny playlist some of the songs we karaoked too.

In due time/testimony

I often find myself wanting more NOW. But doesn't most people feel the same way. Anyway, I have been trying not to always want more, but rather pray for what needs to come for me and my family. In due time... That is what I am learning. Our father in heaven will give to us in his own time what we need... a new car, a house, children, peace of mind, all of these things come in due time.

I am blessed. I have what I need NOW. I really don't need more. I want a lot of things, but need no. I am grateful for what I do have and who I have. I love my family and adore them.

David is who/what I needed...I have him. He is so many things to our family. More than just a provider. He is the heart of our home. I am the soul. I will do whatever it takes to care for our "heart". I love him so much.

I have a testimony of family. I am so grateful for the gospel I know. I know without a doubt that it is true. I am proud to say I am Mormon/LDS/ Latter-Day Saint. I belong to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I am proud that I have been married in the holy house of the Lord, the temple. I have been blessed both in worldly treasures and spiritual ones too. I am thankful for a spouse who shares my convictions. I am not ashamed of faith. I don't know all there is to know, but I do know what my spirit tell me and it tells with unwavering that my church is true and my faith is flawless/faultless. I am blessed.

This is my testimony my gift for you, I share it with you. Amen.

If you have not seen the draper temple it is your last chance before the dedication. Go, see the beauty and the peace it has for you. I love this gospel. Click on any of the phrases below and see a short video about that topic and then you will know what I mean.

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I got this at http://www.wordle.net/
It says a lot and in a creative little "pile"

Let's get physical. Physical. I want to get physicalllllllll!!

Olivia Newton-John started this whole crazy thing, it's her fault...and I'm glad. We bought a treadmill a couple of years ago. I didn't want to spend too much on it, but top of the line or nothing according to David. We got it to really motivate all of us to be more health conscience. It worked for a while,but eventually we all gave up. David has yet to really return back to it. I have been off and on, but now I have a new outlook (like the last time).

I joined the fitness center and now I have workout buddies. My friend Sheri and her husband Tom are going to start picking me up early mornings to go and workout with them. This is probably going to be the best way for me to really get in shape. It is too easy for me to say not today when I am alone, but when I have an obligation to others it's a whole new ball game. I am glad.

I am going to building a workout schedule for me and Alex. He wants to start a little bit of weight lifting. I think he is ready and hopefully he will see the benefits of being healthier. This is going to allow me to teach Aiden how to swim. And David will tone up.

I can only do this if I think of just putting one foot in front of the other. One step at a time. I would say wish me luck, but luck has never gotten me anywhere.

So, I'll ask if you have any real great music for my mp3 to help me be motivated to work harder and smarter click the comment link and let me know. I need all the help I can get. Thanks.