You're NOT invited to my pity party, it's just me rambling.

Have you just ever wanted to just pout? Silly question!

~We've all been there.~

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I want some better things in life, but they seem to be just out of my grasp.

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I look to my right....there's nobody there.

I look to my left....still nobody there.

I look straight down and I see just me.

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I am the only person responsible for my current situation.

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Being a mom is HARD WORK! Being a wife is not far behind it.

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O my GOSH, I'm tired!!!!!!!!

Praise to the Man!!!

My father-in-law, like Rodney Dangerfield does not get a whole lot of respect nevertheless, I love that man. He is such a great father. I am sure he didn't set out in his life as a young man and thought "gee I think I will raise 10 kids."

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But 10 is what he got.

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Now out of those 10 only a few...okay more than a few I just don't want to count right now, have kids of their own so that makes him "GRANDPA!!" He takes that role seriously. He plays with all of his grandkids, he tickles to no end, he kisses to nearly comas, he hugs for dear life and smiles to make sure they know he loves them. But for me the most important thing is when he makes sure he has time for them.

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Grandpa Karr, you ROCK!!!

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David has started back up at the U and his nights are away from home. This past week Alex had a young mens activity. "Fathers & Sons softball," and he wanted his grandpa to come. Granpa said he would be there for him. I decided to tag along with Aiden. I wanted to be a supportive mommy and of course I brought my camera.

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They all had a great time. I was so grateful to grandpa for making this time for Alex & Aiden.

We love you so much Grandpa Karr....and don't you forget it.

Talents.... and a little MAN

I always undercut myself on my talents, but the I read this passage in the scriptures;

Matt. 25: 15-16, 20, 22, 24-25, 28

15 And unto one he gave five talents, to another two, and to another one; to every man according to his several ability; and straightway took his journey.
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16 Then he that had received the five talents went and traded with the same, and made them other five talents.
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20 And so he that had received five talents came and brought other five talents, saying, Lord, thou deliveredst unto me five talents: behold, I have gained beside them five talents more.
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22 He also that had received two talents came and said, Lord, thou deliveredst unto me two talents: behold, I have gained two other talents beside them.
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24 Then he which had received the one talent came and said, Lord, I knew thee that thou art an hard man, reaping where thou hast not sown, and gathering where thou hast not strawed:

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25 And I was afraid, and went and hid thy talent in the earth: lo, there thou hast that is thine.

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28 Take therefore the talent from him, and give it unto him which hath ten talents.

Now I realize that a talent during the time of Christ was/is something totally different than what it is/means today...

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I love photography. I think I might have a talent for it, but I am also very much so like the man in the 25. However, I don't want my talent to be taken away from me.

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So I will be moving forward and using my talent doing photography for hire. This will help me supplement some of the fun I want to share with my guys. Also, as I do more the better I know I will be come. Here's what I did just today.

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Good vs Better....or is good, Good Enough

I love to look at houses. I love to see with a different eye. I love less rather more. I love the momentum of the forward motion, it seems to me that I am going in the right direction when I am moving forward.

Sooooooo, when I look at an area out in the "boonies" some 4+ years ago I thought it was a great "steal." And with how the market has tanked it still is a steal.

I am married.

I am married to a man who is very easily "rooted," so when I told him about this FABULOUS place, I was shot down. Land for sale at $16,000 or so for 2+ acres(that was so then, now land is going for upwards of $70K for an acre). You didn't need to build on it immediately, but it would be nice was all they required.

Years have now past. That very area is the area where my bestfriend and her husband have bought a BEAUTIFUL home. I WANT TO LIVE THERE!!!! I just want to jump and down like a 4 year old screaming, "I saw it FIRST!!!!!", but I know better.

My darling provider constantly tells me, we will build your "dream" house in the future....Click here to see is my "dream house". Here are my thoughts...what good is my particular dream house in the future??? It is a house designed for more than just two people.

Furthermore, I am told repeatedly, we have what we need...I get that, however, I need space. I need to have a door to my bedroom. I need and want to live on the same floor as my children. I would like to not have to share a main floor bathroom with BOYS!!! You know what I am getting at, right!?!

Being the only girl in a house.....I need my space. I need to have a place where I can be girlie!

If getting rid of stuff is the key for having more space which would lead to a great deal more sanity I am on board. I just don't know where to start....I GOT IT!!!! I have a beautiful Barbie collection. I think I will start to sell some of them. Really! I can't pass them down to anyone. I have no daughters.

So keep a look out on my blog for pics for whose up for grabs!!! Maybe there will be some sanity at the end of the rainbow.

AdVeNtUrEs In RaIsInG AiDeN part 2

We just walked home from church and I was reading something of no significance. David and Aiden sat down at the dinner table next to me and Alex b-lined it to his room to change. Aiden decided to strike up a conversation...

Aiden: Mom, do you love ME the mostest?

Nakia: No.

Aiden: Do you love Alex the mostest?

Nakia: No.

Aiden: Do you love Daddy the mostes?

Nakia: No, I loved Daddy first.

Aiden: (With an angry face, nostrils flaring and don't forget the pursed lips) Well, who do you love the mostest!!!!

Nakia: (Carfully picking my words, so I thought) I love Heavenly Father the mostest.

Aiden: NOT ME!!!!!!!! Fine, I don't love you the mostest either!!