"Moment Girl"

You know that feeling

(really prominent in high school)

when you feel like all of your friends have turned

their back on you.

Sorta like an episode from "The Wonder Years."

That is what I feel like I am going through right now.

(not saying that is what is really happening, just the feeling)

It's like I am reaching out and there is no one there to listen (friendwise, that is, Dave's awesome).

It's like I'm being ignored....

I'm saying hi.....no reply.

I make a call...no call back.

I feel like I am a "moment girl."

my value is of only the moment and that moment has passed.

So what do I do?  Not good things.  I have neglected myself trying to figure all of this out. 

I smile the warmest smile and spread seeds of encouragement for others, but

Who will water and nourish me, in my friendship garden?

I got a feeling...

...that I am getting lost in this "fat girl body".

You've heard it all before...

"...you've got to love the body you're in." 

Sorry, but folks, I think that is a bunch of POO!!

The body I had pre-babies was " SLAMMIN'," it worked so much better than this one I have now.

This post-body hates shopping...(admittedly, it only owns really 3 pair of comfortable pants, and a just a few more tops, oh my gosh, just writing this is beginning to depress me). 

I hate how I feel

 in this body.

Can you believe it took me two weeks to get this posted....
I've got to get me some everyday bests...

Found "Pearls" in Walmart parking lot

Didn't think much about going shopping this morning at Walmart.

Just going to gather some odds and ends for a surprise and other knick knacks.

As I was loading my goods in my van, there she was,

a very old lady, seeming lost, walking in circles pushing a cart with a blanket bundled in the seat portion, so I thought.

I walked up to her and asked her if she needed any help.

She told me no, and explained to me that her dr. told her she need to to get outside and walk, or she would lose the ability.

I just smiled and said okay.  Once I finished my loading, I walked to the cart corral, still watching her making sure she didn't fall or anything.  As I walked back to my  van she stopped me.

"Thank you so much, for asking me if I needed help.  That means a lot to us old people."  I was close enough to see tears well in her eyes, which were very bright and blue.

"Your welcome."  I felt she need a hug so I gave her one.  We hugged for about 10 seconds or so, while I just said her, "Thank you for allowing me to give you a hug." As we parted she just held my hand and we started a conversation standing literally in the middle of the parking lot.

I learned she was 80 years old, she had just celebrated her birthday in January.  Her children threw her a surprise party, with over a thousand people in attendance.  She glowed with joy as she continued to talk about her children and her many friends and church companions, who were there.

As we talked I noticed movement in her cart. She had a little dog covered in the blanket.  Her only companion.  I knew at that moment why she held me there.  She needed a friend and someone to just talk to even if it was only for a couple of minutes.

Before, I had to go, I asked, "So, you've experienced many things in your life, what words of wisdom would you have that I can take with me?

"Learn to be happy."

We hugged again and went our seperate ways, both with tears.

I know she was sent to me, to give me that "pearl."

Right now I am struggling with learning to be happy...and that is in general. 

So I ask.....

How are you learning to be happy?

Conversations with a teenager

We were watching the bachelor last night....I know high level education.

and during a commercial we had a conversation with Alex.

Well, really Alex had a comment, that led to a conversation.

Alex:  You know guys, I look at your realtionship.

D&N:  Oh really!!!

Alex:  Yeah.  Ya know when you do that thing....

D&N:  Oh this!  (And we lean over and kiss each other lots of times.)

Alex:  Yeah! Yeah!  You can quit it now!!!

D&N:  Does it bother you that we kiss?

Alex:  Noooo.  It actually makes me feel happy, like everything is alright.

D&N:  (with eyebrows raised in shock)  We didn't know you paid that much attention to us.  What else have you noticed about our relationship?

Alex:  Sometimes you argue?

D&N:  How does it make you feel when we argue.

Alex:  I feel fine, because you don't yell and scream at each other, and I can see that you are working out your differences.  So I don't worry to much about it.

D&N:  Oh my goodness, Dave, I think we are setting a good example for the boy (Both of us smiling at him).  So Alex, what qualities do you admire in the both of us.

Alex:  Mom, I admire your strength.  You are not afraid of breaking up a fight at my school or anything and I admire how much you love people....Dad, she's not shy at all!!!

David:  Alex you'd be surprised.

Alex:  Dad, I admire your hardwork and how you support me.

D&N:  Wow!

This is great evidence that our children are watching. 

They see how we treat each other.

How we feel our stress and concerns.

We are their best example of what is right and good.