SOOOO ANGRY!!

Over the past couple of months, I have been dealing with a close family member's serious health issue, not my own (I needed to add that because I am getting a lot of worried people coming at me) and I guess I am going through the different stages of grief at the news.
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BREAST CANCER!!

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Just typing it here makes me weep :-{

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What am I suppose to do? Life is short enough, but to have a illness that will kill you and do nothing, just seems irresponsible and selfish, but that is the reality of now.

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I can't imagine not being with my family here. I can't imagine my children being without their mother, my husband being with out his companion. I just can't imagine.

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IT SCARES ME!

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AND TO DO NOTHING is a death sentence and IS JUST PLAIN STUPID!!!

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I am so angry. I used to be sad and worried for my sister. So very sad for my mother. Sad and worried for my entire family, but now I am just so angry!!

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Many have said leave this in the hands of God.

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I have appealed to Him so much, I have fasted and will do more fasting.

I just need and want peace now.

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I can't write anymore...I am beside myself with sadness.

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TIME that is all we all have to give.

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What do I do now how am I suppose to help?