Do you ever feel that way?
This is my expierence now. There are so many people who have out a helping hand and
I appreciate it beyond measure.
But who out there can understand this feeling of isolation, with all that my family is going through.
I seem to be trying to blow it off with statements like
"..it could be worst."
"...it is what it is."
I just want to give up.
I am tired. I feel like a washing woman in India by the river, washing & washing, but the pile (problems) seem to mount, never reducing.
....I just turned 35 two days ago and I want my mommy.
Pathetic, I know.
I think I am just tired of losing kids, kids being sick and no outlet for me. I just want to belong somewhere with a group of friends, instead of being a tag along.
I want to be a part of something with friends.
Right now, I feel like I'm in India with a billion people, yet alone and no one can see me.
Pathetic, I know.
I think I am just tired of losing kids, kids being sick and no outlet for me. I just want to belong somewhere with a group of friends, instead of being a tag along.
I want to be a part of something with friends.
Right now, I feel like I'm in India with a billion people, yet alone and no one can see me.
I am so sorry Nakia. I wish that we were able to sit together on your couch this afternoon. On this Earth there really is probably no one can fully understand the things that you are going through and what you've already been through. But this afternoon as I was trying to get in some scripture study (doesn't happen very often) I came upon this little gem. I think that it is a good fit for everyone but especially you today.
ReplyDelete2 Nephi 9:20
O how great the holiness of [your] God! For He knoweth all things, and there is not anything save He knows it.
Your Heavenly Father knows your pain. He knows your worries. He knows your loneliness. He KNOWS your fears. He knows your future. Never forget that. He knows you Nakia.
You are a VERY strong woman with a lot of faith. You are an inspiration to me, your whole family is really. Please smile today even just once, it doesn't have to be now, just find the perfect moment to do it. Please. I just keep looking at your silhouette. The word that keeps coming to mind is strength. You have it and I know your son has it. Never forget that. I love you and will continue to pray for you all. One day at a time---