Tears for my HAIR

I haven't seen this movie, but just this trailer almost makes me cry.

I have a deepseated

Hate

relationship with my hair. Always have!!

I am the typical African American, Black, Woman of Color....chose your label...

I have had the weave...

and on more than a few occasions the braids/extentions

and yes proudly all the way down to the BUTT...

Let us not forget when HATE turned into self-inflicted hair mutilation...

(which only took/takes place in the quiet secret of the night, but awakened to confused screams of

"WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!?!")...

Then there are the many opportunities when I have indulged in

"Creamy Crack"

Now I am at a loss.  I have now abandon all the above and resorted to the state of the

headscarf.

It's bad people. 

I am now shopping for scarves that match various outfits. 

So what do you do?  People have said, "Go to the salon."

What those very right voices utter, lack a great deal of understanding on....

*Where I live: Salt Lake City, which I love and hopefully will never have to leave, but....

  The populus is not in my hair's favor.

*Economical Hardship: When you live in a place where you are in a large minority, price gouging is rampant.  What I can have done with my hair at home (meaning NC) is roughly 3 times less or in some cases even less than here.

I called up a salon (who will remain nameless, since most people go to it here) and asked  them to price out having my hair braided with extentions just to my shoulders.... $1500.00.

I have had this same thing done at home for as little as $55.00

That little failed negoiation has lead me to doing it for myself.

I will say, when left to your own devices you learn and become creative.

Now I am at a crossroads of what to do with what little hair I have. 

*Do I do another shave...hubby has already marked that one off.

*Go and get another hit of "Creamy Crack"

*Braid the little leftover strands from previous damage (my fault) 

I am at a loss....

SO I SIT HERE IN FRONT OF THIS MONITOR...

hair standing at attention atop my head.  Wondering what scraf will adorn it today. 

...the problem is, I don't have anything to go with this particular outfit. 

D$%#!