Still Looking...

...but picking up a little joy

here & there.

In our downstairs bathroom we have a saying my mother-in-law made for us one Christmas

I see it everyday and for some reason today it hit me.

I have been searching for "things" "people" and "relationship"

to give me joy.

But all the while my

BLESSINGS

have been right there/here.

No one will ever truly understand how much my husband loves me, but me or the depth of my devotion to him.  He is my BLESSING.

Alex is a GREAT kid, but no one will ever know his heart like I do.  He is also my BLESSING.

My baby, Aiden, challenges me to be better for him and me.  I wish I had just a little of his determination.  He is such a BLESSING to me.

I have been given some talents I never knew I was in possession of.  It may sound small to you but, I can sew.  I can cook a great meal.  These are things I didn't do in my youth.  They became present in my married life.  They are talents that are great BLESSINGS for me.

The Rubied Apple.  I had to think about why I have set up a store.  At first it was for Alex, 100%

I had no idea why I came up with the name "The Rubied Apple." 

 After all "Rubied" is not even a word.

But I thought it through.

Alex's health as well as everybody's health is so precious.  And I for one have taken that for granted. 

The Rubied Apple has put my lazy behavior in my face.

I am a RUBY.  I am PRECIOUS.

I need to be of good FRUIT.  I need to be embrace the symbol of health the APPLE.

It is a BLESSING to help me make better Rubied Apple choices for me and my family.

My testimony has buoyed me for many years.  It has carried me.

and for whatever reason(s)

I cannot will not deny it

nor will it allow me.

I am still looking for.....

But in the meantime, I will receive my BLESSINGS and allow them to fill me with joy.