What should one think....How should one feel?...What matters most?

Called my dad, just to check in.  And the first thing he says, "Nee, you won't believe this.  We lost the baby."

I felt a little numb.

It brougt back some of the feelings of losing our two other sons, but I wasn't overcome with sadness.

That is a good thing.

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I was just sad that someone else I know had to expierence what we had to deal with.

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The crazy part of all this I haven't even addressed yet.

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The baby was lost July 15th.

The day after I wrote "what's in a name post."

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Cynthia, never said anything.  Never gave a hint.  Never anything.

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She allowed us to name the child.  I don't understand that.

I am not angry, just a little shellshocked by the whole thing.  A bit baffled as to why she would let this go on for 2 whole months.

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People had been giving her clothing.  My dad had been buying her clothing and she never said anything.

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I know her heart aches.  I know she feels like by doing this she was "salvaging" the relationship she has with my dad, but for him, that was not the case.  He cares for her just like he always has.  Hopefully, one day she will understand that.

She told him they could try again and my dad said firmly, NO!!! 

I am glad about that.

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So I am left here not really sure what to think or how to feel.

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I pray she and my dad will weather this well......

Wouldn't wish this on my worst of enemies or strongest of friends.

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I am SOOO Grateful for my knowledge I have of the gospel.  I am thankful for the peace I have in knowing the plan of happiness.