So this week the boys were away and I was left alone with Aiden. Is it normal that I get a little bit anxious at the thought of being alone with my 5-year old for an entire week?
I've done this what 3-4 times now and I still can't shake the whole nervous Nelly feeling I get. It all boils down to, when they (Alex and David) are home Aiden goes into complete meltdown nearly, EVERYDAY!!! And I turn into this screaming banshee, he gets to call Mama.
It is all so ridiculous, I know, but that is what happens here.
Well, when they, the "big" boys go on camps or what not, Aiden becomes a total "emotionally balanced" child. I don't get it. I can't quite figure it out. I think that is why I am taking psychology. Looking forward to abnormal child psychology. I am sure I will discover I am the abnormal one and everyone else is just fine.
So what does the anxiety I feel mean? I have even notice a change in my personality with Aiden when they are gone. I become so....tempered and not so "on the wire". Nothing erks me to the level of "flying off the handle" like when David and Alex are home.
Aiden is just your typical, play loving, jokester little boy. And I see his love of life better when the "big ones" are not here. How do I keep that about me? How do I constantly see the joyful screaming and playing just for what it is and not some attack on "MY" personal peace.
I read a quote from an interview that Sister Spafford, RS General President said back in 1974,
"The mother has the great and wonderful opportunity of creating a spiritual atmosphere in her home.
By her teachings and, even more important, by her attitude, she teaches children what it means to love the Lord, to sustain the priesthood, and to live a rich, fulfilling life—a peaceful, orderly life that is reflected in the home itself.
Can you imagine what a home would be like where the mother had the constant companionship of the Holy Ghost?"
NO, I can't imagine that! I think all of my screaming has scared the Holy Ghost and my children.
How do I get that serene feeling, I have right now to stay with me every single day?
"The mother has the great and wonderful opportunity of creating a spiritual atmosphere in her home.
By her teachings and, even more important, by her attitude, she teaches children what it means to love the Lord, to sustain the priesthood, and to live a rich, fulfilling life—a peaceful, orderly life that is reflected in the home itself.
Can you imagine what a home would be like where the mother had the constant companionship of the Holy Ghost?"
NO, I can't imagine that! I think all of my screaming has scared the Holy Ghost and my children.
How do I get that serene feeling, I have right now to stay with me every single day?
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